Sere Nere
Posted by Aberatia Policroma | Filed under Lume Oarba
I pride myself with who I am but most of all with what have become along time, forged by everything that should have put me down and instead made me even stronger. I am not easily defeated and rarely do I fall off my high horse. I am a ferm believer in what makes a relationship, and after trials and tribulations I given up on that shit.
As I have given up on many other things that do me no good. I have taken the risk of thinking and acting like a man in these aspects of life, accepting the possibility of being called a whore or what not. However, I was never a fan of double standards, nor did I accept being taken for a sentimental fool.
But sometimes life plays a trick on me, making me doubt to the core who I have become. In these moments I am willing to throw everything out the window just for a try of that old medicine that did me more bad than good.
Unfortunately I scare people off. My attitude can scare off even the most courageous of men, since who has seen women like me and not feel the teeniest bit threatened? How can you face a hurricane of narcissism, self confidence and sexuality, that’s coming right to you, without feeling a little tremor inside?
Now tell me this, am I to change, or I am to continue being myself this way, hoping some day someone will come and stop the storm? Sun will rise from behind the clouds and all that bullshit? Or I am to sweep them away, making them bits and pieces on my way to whereverland?
How do I always find the weak ones, the out-of-relationship-still-in love-with-my-ex-thinking-of-her-24/7, not-in-that-moment-of-my-life, desperate-to-the-core guys, and none of those ready to stand in the middle of the storm and give the rain a chance.
What the fuck? Are all men fucking cowards, waiting for their mummy? Are there no real men on the face of this planet? Or I am an aberration that seeks for the impossible?
Tags: aberration, men, relationship, sere nere, women
September 22nd, 2009 at 12:45 AM
Just… have a little faith!
September 22nd, 2009 at 10:41 AM
Ma asteptam ca toti barbatii curajosi, singuri, devotati si fara regrete sa comenteze acest articol, incurajandu-te si aratandu-ti dorinta de a te cunoaste.
As vrea sa cred ca exista astfel de barbati si doar din lipsa de timp sau din neatentie nu si-au lasat amprenta aici. Asta ar demonstra ca nu toti barbatii sunt niste porci, asa cum unii dintre noi credem cu tarie, asteptand de ceva vreme exceptia.
Desigur, e bine sa ai putina credinta. E chiar mai bine sa ai mai multa, dar pana cand vei intalni un barbat care sa-ti placa din toate privintele, iti doresc sa ai parte macar de sex de calitate.
Si de imbratisarea din zori. Cafeaua adusa la pat ar insemna deja relatie. Iti doresc sa te bucuri de toate!